The Only Exception

"Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul, that love never lasts and we've got to find other ways to make it alone, or keep a straight face. And I've always lived like this-keeping a comfortable distance and up until now I had sworn to myself that I was content with lonliness. Cause none of it was ever worth the risk, but...you are the only exception" -Paramore

I've always had the silent unspoken rule for myself that I need to be comfortable with myself and love who I am before I can allow someone else to love me. I believe that is the only way someone can give you their everything and you can allow yourself to give them your everything. I've always wondered if I would ever find someone who would finish my puzzle, who would fit perfectly with me. I am a big jumble of ideas, opinions, feelings, thoughts, and emotions that never makes sense. I am a foreign language, and I need a translator. I need someone to figure me out. I want someone to figure me out. I want someone to love me for all my flaws. I want someone to be able to finish my sentences and understand where I am coming from and know what I am going to say before I say it.

I feel like no one will ever understand though, because at times I don't even understand me. But for now I am completely content with who I am. I am not "single" because that implies that I am looking for something, and I'm not. I'm happy being a foreign language that no one can understand, a puzzle piece standing alone. I am independent and strong enough to be happy with myself and not have to have someone there to hold me up.

Lifes a silly little thing, but I love my life and I wouldn't trade it for the world. <3